Send forth your light and your truth,
let them guide me;
let them bring me to your holy mountain,
to the place where you dwell. - Ps 43:3
Walk about Zion, go around her,
count her towers,
consider well her ramparts,
view her citadels,
that you may tell of them to the next generation.
For this God is our God for ever and ever;
he will be our guide even to the end.- Ps 48:12-14
When my heart was grieved
and my spirit embittered,
I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.
Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.
But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds. -Ps 73:21-28
There are lots of things I can write, but these scriptures say it all. I begin with Jesus... I don't know if any other scripture reads as sweetly to my eyes. Jesus speaks to me through this scripture. When the worst had befallen me, when I was ordinary, unnoticed or avoided by the world, Jesus saw me and crept down in the dust beside me. He found me in the worst of it all. He asked me to believe, to trust, to look to Him. And I did.
I was once lost and tossed in a sea of worry. I was taken under by every wave, each one crashed on me. The difference between me now and me then is this... I'm still in the sea, but now I know to keep holding on. A little longer, a little longer. I wish there was a stronger way to express how I feel but I *know*, I am absolutely certain, God is with me.
We have a big God. We have a faithful God. We have a compassionate, patient God. Everything about God is light, love, truth, peace. He's never done harm to us. He holds us when the world comes crashing down, when it all seems too much, when we've lost everything...even a brother, even a son. He is with me in the darkest pain, in the heaviest, most tormenting heartache. He relieves shame. He cleanses and makes new. He creates and sustains something lasting in you. You can hide yourself in God, you can talk to Him and tell Him everything that's on your heart. You can ask Him to hide you away for a while. And He will. In the Spring something rattled my already shaky heart, and I just asked Him to please take the situation from me and hide me somewhere quiet. And He did. I'm still in the quiet in which He's keeping me.
I ask Him for His guidance, for His wisdom. But you have to be willing. God will guide the willing.
God will take pain from you. It might be an everyday request, but He will do it for you. Ask Him to show you how much He loves you. Be looking for those little love letters from God. I really believe every time I see a bird God sends them to remind me of His love. I love birds, I always have. They remind me of my Grandmother. They remind me of peace and harmony. Today God surprised me with a flock of doves that flew out of tall grass in my back yard. It was beautiful. One time he sent a hummingbird while I was outside praying, and it came literally 4 inches from my face. :)
Don't be troubled. Don't be sad. The God from age to age, from Adam and Moses until now is with you. Surrounding you, protecting you, holding you and hiding you away. He wants to hold onto you, just like a parent longs to hold their baby.
"Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God." Ps 43:5
"You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance." Ps 32:7
Take heart. Each time I read and remember these things it's harder to penetrate my faith.
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