Wow... what a weird month. Good month, blessed month. It's just interesting to watch God stripping something unhealthy from me. For once (LOL) It's nothing I did.
Sometimes you start down a path that in the moment brings a lot of good into your life. You learn a lot about yourself and a lot of lessons. Then all of a sudden the road needs repaving. You're hitting all kinds of pot holes and suddenly you wish you were on a different way to the final destination. That's been me for the past few months. Something I really wanted to do with all of my heart just wasn't right anymore. Others continually put stumbling blocks under my feet, and purposely made it difficult for me to do the best job I could. Maybe I could handle this if I were a few months more recovered but I just cannot devote all of me to handling this crisis. The first person I need to care for right now is myself. Nothing about it is easy. Nothing. I know it's necessary. I know God wants to pull me under His mighty wing and shelter me for a while, care for me for a while, strengthen me for a while.
My husband asked me to please step back from how far into it I was. He could tell. He asked me to work on me. At first I fought it, I have my kids, and I have him, and it's a lot to care for. But he persisted to trust him to handle those things. He said it was all right to rest. And to be honest, I don't think it was just him speaking to me in that moment.
I got into the College of Charleston, one of the best public schools in the country. And I'm going. I'm moving.
When I explained this a few people close to me fuh-reeeaked out. Which hurt. I've done a lot of crying and praying over this decision and I do believe I'm not wrong to seize the moment to step back from everyone else and step forward for myself.
So here it goes...
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